Greater Good!!!

Same shit! Different Day!!

Well well!!! Here i am again. . .seriously getting nuts here. . .dont knw wat to do. . .got nuthing to do and as they say empty mind is devils abode. . .i wont say i allow devils to get inside my mind. . .but there are many other things that seep through the perimeters and truly rob me of my relief. . .if to say truly i feel i am surrounded by a bunch of evil gooddoers who just want to make u believe that they are gonna be there for you. . .but as soon as u let ur guard down. . .they backstab u. . .i am already too down and seriously i dont want anyone to kick me right now. . .i am in a state of complete chaos. . .as if i asked someone to colour my life with chaos. . .did i????

Fuck you!!!!

New things first. . .nowadys i am disgusted with me and my life and the saddest part is that i am not unhappy bout that. . .my present condition is like a alzhiemric whore in a whorehouse. . .she knws shez continually getting screwed. . .and shez not even getng paid for that. . .:((
Why everything you want. . .nvr comes to you when u want it??? And will come to you wen obviously u don’t need it huh???
I guess god works in a really mysterious way. . .but honestly i wont call it mysterious i would call it shitty manner. . .no offense big guy. . .i truly adore all the work u do for all us low lives. . .but i kinda admit the fact some things do suck!!
I am not quite sure on wat context i am saying all that but seriously i am in deep down shit right now. . .dont know wat to do to get out coz seriously i am not getting a ray of light. . .
I knw wat u will say to me now that if u get all u want u never understands the value of it. . .but as far as i knw i never took anything too lightly not to note their value so i guess its partial hell on me. . .i always wanted to be the right guy. . .the perfect son. . .perfect brother. . .perfect friend. . .i knw i kinda screwed a lot in that too. . .not something i am really very proud of but. . .i really tried. . .i wish i was someone better. . .i wish i had some other life but everything just turned out to be in shit and to tell you not even worthy shit like they say in movies and books. . .that to get something u should go through some shit but this shit doesn’t thinned when i had enough i just keep on getting thicker and thicker. . .like i needed that huh????
Do i really look in the desperation on some more shit huh????cant i guess its a little bit my turn of getting some sunshine. . .or anything just typically. . .not shit again!!!! I wanted to be the main actor of my story but anyhow i just turn out to be the supporting cast!!!!:-O
Why always i have to stuck up with things i don’t want in my life??? I never wanted to have everything best. . .i swear i nvr did. . .i just wanted wat i think was ok not too big. . .all i wanted was her but somehow u have something greater planned for me. . .so now answer me one thing. . .did i ever asked you to make some really great plans for me???let me recall how many times i have asked that. . .ummm. . .hmm. . .huh. . .ya i counted. . .it came NONE. . .as in zero. . .as in nothing. . .but i guess u r generous enough to have something greater for me in the sack. . .i can never be thankful enough for that. . .i swear i am. . .but for once let me help out in this one. . .i am just asking. . .i am not threatening you. . .by i saying i wont believe in you. . .or. . .like i would stop admiring you . . .coz i wont i believe in you. . .i always will. . .but m asking u a favour as a man to a man. . .a friend to another friend. . .a son to a father. . .just help me in. . .u knw wat shit i am going through. . .i am not asking for anything big. . .just one signal thats all i want. . .its not a big thing to ask for. . .i mean u r the big guy!!! The almighty. . .u can do that there should be nothing wrong bout that huh???or is it???
Well i guess thats enough for today. . .and remember dude. . .no offense. . .evrything said i just rhetorical. . .lolz. . .i don’t evn knw what that means i just typed that. . .pretty strange huh??? Well i guess talk u soon. . .m waiting for the signal. . .and ya i will call u soon:)

Is my presence indispensable?

Is my presence indispensable?
Or am I of just no use?
Can you show me the road?
Where my luck with life will diffuse?
Why am I so close to failure?
I think success is shy
I just wish,
I could have my head held high.
I can't do that I wonder why?

My instincts tell me I am about to die
Leaving no flame only smoke
And the people relieved,
That the smoke is gone,
Between life and death I am torn.

I am like the storm that flows towards destruction
With no stopping, the time grows.
When the speed breaker is too much to take,
The time is lost like a delicious cake.

To admit failure is death.
And at the moment, I am lying in its bed.
Cant this life let me live?
And stop me from breaking down like this?

Why am I so defenseless?
Why does everything seem so senseless?
Am I the one to blame?
I can do with being a little resent less.

But in my heart,
The spark is still there.
Despite the suffering mocking at it.
The hope shall sprout from the ashes,
And I will bear it in my heart forever.
As comes morning after night,
Light after dark,
I will certainly live with the spark.

You try to scare me. . .fuck you. . .u can only try. . .

strange shit happened today. . .and believe me if i say strange it gotta be strange. . .so here i tell you what happened. . .more than three months ago, i was having fun in a class. . .and a girl tried to hit me that time and i caught her hand in self defense. . .i hold her hand. . .and today her boyfriend came to me of all days to fight for that "assault". . .and they tried to scare me that anytime if i tried even to talk to her they would break my face. . .told you its strange. . .they tried to scare me as if they can. . .and i am still not scared as in fact i am not. . .they said me that i should apologise her. . .i said ok!! i assaulted her i should apologise. . .and i called her to say i feel sorry(but believe me i was not. . .as i did nuthing wrong). . .but when i said sorry to that bitch you cant believe me what she said. . .she said its something she can never forgive me for that as if i raped her!!!!. . .i wanted to say fuck you bitch!!! but as her sonvabitch boyfriend was there i said ok then try it. . .as if i care???
now i am thinking about one thing either that girl is so dumb that she came to know i assaulted her after three whole months. . .or i am too smart that she hates me and wants to get rid of me. . .i doubt the second one. . .
Another scenario. . .her boyfriend has got nuts in fact of brain. . .i also agree with this one. . .i kinda agree with both shez dumb and her boyfriend got nuts as brain. . .
so i take this time out to tell those dogs and bitches if you try again to scare me. . .you dont knw how bad i can be. . .its not a statement. . .if i am good i am really good. . .but if i am bad you just wish. . .dont judge a man by his size coz if you take this lightly i will show you that how a man complete a child's job. . .;)

And i wanna summerize all think by saying. . .FUCK YOU!!!!!

Feeling lonely. . .:((

well it has been quite a time from my last blog. . .so here i am again. . .throwing punchlines and noone cares. . .well spend all the time doing some crazy shit. . .watching two and a half men telethon. . .it was fun. . .and not to forget The Family Guy. . .its also too good to believe. . .some dialogues of the second one are quite cool. . .i think evryone should see these. . .now coming to the point why the hell i am spending all my time watching that shit??? the reason is i have no one to talk to. . .thats the only reason i started my blog apparently. . .i guess i have to do something really fast. . .if i dont wanna die alone and boring. . .believe me i could have died of being boring. . .its not like that i have no one to talk to. . .saying that would be just mere stretching the condition. . .i have friends but all are busy. . .and i dont knw what they have been busy in. . .damn those morons. . .lolz. . .but really i am too bored to tell. .and that coz i am feeling lonely in a crowd of not so complete strangers but to come to point ya strangers. . .i tried callin all my frnds but evrytime i call they are busy. . .and they promise me to call back. . .and i am still waiting for their call back. . .if not even call at least miss call. . .i dont mind getting a miss call just give me a signal that even u wanna talk to me. . .u also miss me the way i miss you. . .
in the last i would like to conclude evrything with. . ."Damn you vile People!!!" lolz. . .

Today is my last day in delhi, as my holidays are over. . .now i need to get back at college. . .which is in andhra pradesh. . .bless me. . .but its not that bad place. . .i mean its open. . .which is good. . .but for the first time in my life i dont wanna leave delhi. . .everything has just gone right for the first time. . .from childhood it was nmy dream to leave delhi and go outside to study but i guess everything changed in the last three months. . .i have always been shy between people. . .but this time i was actually talking, i was able to converse with people without any problem. . .which helped me to actually talk to the girl i have been in love from past four years. . .for first time i rally felt like talking to her. . .we talked a lot in comparison to last four years of silence. . .but nw everything gonna change again. . .f@#k why??? i mean for the first time i was actually talking to her and now this shit comes in b/w. . .shez the only person i think about evrynight and morning. . .i usually don't wake up early in the morning but whenever my eyes just open i send her a good morning msg whether i wont be able to keep my eyes open to read reply. . .whether sleeping or awake shez the only one on my mind. . .i am only telling this here coz i knw she wont be reading it. . .i just want to express that yeah i live my life for you. . .i never really meant to love you, as you were my friend, but i just accidentally fell in love with you. . .
and this is not only because of her, i don't wanna leave, shez just one among the reasons. . .in past months i have found my life. . .or to say found a way to live it large. . .found old friendship again. . .and inherited some of my fathers prized possessions. . .which are really too close to me. . .and did i mentioned long lost friendship. . .it was the most beautiful part of these holidays. . .chao. . .will see you soon. . .