Well well!!! Here i am again. . .seriously getting nuts here. . .dont knw wat to do. . .got nuthing to do and as they say empty mind is devils abode. . .i wont say i allow devils to get inside my mind. . .but there are many other things that seep through the perimeters and truly rob me of my relief. . .if to say truly i feel i am surrounded by a bunch of evil gooddoers who just want to make u believe that they are gonna be there for you. . .but as soon as u let ur guard down. . .they backstab u. . .i am already too down and seriously i dont want anyone to kick me right now. . .i am in a state of complete chaos. . .as if i asked someone to colour my life with chaos. . .did i????
Monday, December 21, 2009
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
Fuck you!!!!
New things first. . .nowadys i am disgusted with me and my life and the saddest part is that i am not unhappy bout that. . .my present condition is like a alzhiemric whore in a whorehouse. . .she knws shez continually getting screwed. . .and shez not even getng paid for that. . .:((
Why everything you want. . .nvr comes to you when u want it??? And will come to you wen obviously u don’t need it huh???
I guess god works in a really mysterious way. . .but honestly i wont call it mysterious i would call it shitty manner. . .no offense big guy. . .i truly adore all the work u do for all us low lives. . .but i kinda admit the fact some things do suck!!
I am not quite sure on wat context i am saying all that but seriously i am in deep down shit right now. . .dont know wat to do to get out coz seriously i am not getting a ray of light. . .
I knw wat u will say to me now that if u get all u want u never understands the value of it. . .but as far as i knw i never took anything too lightly not to note their value so i guess its partial hell on me. . .i always wanted to be the right guy. . .the perfect son. . .perfect brother. . .perfect friend. . .i knw i kinda screwed a lot in that too. . .not something i am really very proud of but. . .i really tried. . .i wish i was someone better. . .i wish i had some other life but everything just turned out to be in shit and to tell you not even worthy shit like they say in movies and books. . .that to get something u should go through some shit but this shit doesn’t thinned when i had enough i just keep on getting thicker and thicker. . .like i needed that huh????
Do i really look in the desperation on some more shit huh????cant i guess its a little bit my turn of getting some sunshine. . .or anything just typically. . .not shit again!!!! I wanted to be the main actor of my story but anyhow i just turn out to be the supporting cast!!!!:-O
Why always i have to stuck up with things i don’t want in my life??? I never wanted to have everything best. . .i swear i nvr did. . .i just wanted wat i think was ok not too big. . .all i wanted was her but somehow u have something greater planned for me. . .so now answer me one thing. . .did i ever asked you to make some really great plans for me???let me recall how many times i have asked that. . .ummm. . .hmm. . .huh. . .ya i counted. . .it came NONE. . .as in zero. . .as in nothing. . .but i guess u r generous enough to have something greater for me in the sack. . .i can never be thankful enough for that. . .i swear i am. . .but for once let me help out in this one. . .i am just asking. . .i am not threatening you. . .by i saying i wont believe in you. . .or. . .like i would stop admiring you . . .coz i wont i believe in you. . .i always will. . .but m asking u a favour as a man to a man. . .a friend to another friend. . .a son to a father. . .just help me in. . .u knw wat shit i am going through. . .i am not asking for anything big. . .just one signal thats all i want. . .its not a big thing to ask for. . .i mean u r the big guy!!! The almighty. . .u can do that there should be nothing wrong bout that huh???or is it???
Well i guess thats enough for today. . .and remember dude. . .no offense. . .evrything said i just rhetorical. . .lolz. . .i don’t evn knw what that means i just typed that. . .pretty strange huh??? Well i guess talk u soon. . .m waiting for the signal. . .and ya i will call u soon:)
Why everything you want. . .nvr comes to you when u want it??? And will come to you wen obviously u don’t need it huh???
I guess god works in a really mysterious way. . .but honestly i wont call it mysterious i would call it shitty manner. . .no offense big guy. . .i truly adore all the work u do for all us low lives. . .but i kinda admit the fact some things do suck!!
I am not quite sure on wat context i am saying all that but seriously i am in deep down shit right now. . .dont know wat to do to get out coz seriously i am not getting a ray of light. . .
I knw wat u will say to me now that if u get all u want u never understands the value of it. . .but as far as i knw i never took anything too lightly not to note their value so i guess its partial hell on me. . .i always wanted to be the right guy. . .the perfect son. . .perfect brother. . .perfect friend. . .i knw i kinda screwed a lot in that too. . .not something i am really very proud of but. . .i really tried. . .i wish i was someone better. . .i wish i had some other life but everything just turned out to be in shit and to tell you not even worthy shit like they say in movies and books. . .that to get something u should go through some shit but this shit doesn’t thinned when i had enough i just keep on getting thicker and thicker. . .like i needed that huh????
Do i really look in the desperation on some more shit huh????cant i guess its a little bit my turn of getting some sunshine. . .or anything just typically. . .not shit again!!!! I wanted to be the main actor of my story but anyhow i just turn out to be the supporting cast!!!!:-O
Why always i have to stuck up with things i don’t want in my life??? I never wanted to have everything best. . .i swear i nvr did. . .i just wanted wat i think was ok not too big. . .all i wanted was her but somehow u have something greater planned for me. . .so now answer me one thing. . .did i ever asked you to make some really great plans for me???let me recall how many times i have asked that. . .ummm. . .hmm. . .huh. . .ya i counted. . .it came NONE. . .as in zero. . .as in nothing. . .but i guess u r generous enough to have something greater for me in the sack. . .i can never be thankful enough for that. . .i swear i am. . .but for once let me help out in this one. . .i am just asking. . .i am not threatening you. . .by i saying i wont believe in you. . .or. . .like i would stop admiring you . . .coz i wont i believe in you. . .i always will. . .but m asking u a favour as a man to a man. . .a friend to another friend. . .a son to a father. . .just help me in. . .u knw wat shit i am going through. . .i am not asking for anything big. . .just one signal thats all i want. . .its not a big thing to ask for. . .i mean u r the big guy!!! The almighty. . .u can do that there should be nothing wrong bout that huh???or is it???
Well i guess thats enough for today. . .and remember dude. . .no offense. . .evrything said i just rhetorical. . .lolz. . .i don’t evn knw what that means i just typed that. . .pretty strange huh??? Well i guess talk u soon. . .m waiting for the signal. . .and ya i will call u soon:)
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